ksanzo

Never being fully fulfilled living in either California or London.


Ask me anything...you may be disappointed with the answer though...  


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lolgayko:

Some of the best drawn hands, man.

GodDAMN I need to own these books! 

Maybe I’ll pick up a copy at AC!

there’s only one book you need, and that’s the Dark Horse omnibus edition

I actually own it but my friend David “Toxic Toot Dick” Belton borrowed it over a year ago and STILL hasn’t returned it

When the Blacksad Omnibus came out, I just gave away my individual books and bought it. Partially because I hoped giving people the books would make them want to buy more, people really gotta spend money on European comics so they’ll translate more of them.

So this looks pretty cool…

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dSkinned Alive: A reptile looking for Oasis - 01

So, I’ve spent most of my morning scratching and writhing, and consequently, shopping online at Lush, and consequently trying out some sample items I got a few months ago when I was in London, and consequently I am gauging their results.

And at some point, when I was in the shower today, my brain came to the conclusion that I would write about this shit for no good reason.

So let me break this down for you.  I have eczema.  I don’t have the worst eczema ever.  My skin doesn’t peel off or anything, but its damn near close.  At the height of the dry season [Winter, round my parts, London and CA] I will scratch so much, I will have open, bleeding sores.  I will literally lacerate my skin with my nails, all over my body.  The backs of my knees, the insides of my thighs, the insides of my elbows, my neck and my ass are the worst…my breasts and abdomen can get pretty itchy too.  If I rip the scab off a reoccurring sore, the blood will literally soak through my clothes.

My skin is so bad that apart from my armpits, I don’t shave.  Apologies to all those lurking would be suitors for killing any lust you held for me. It’s better you find out than build up some massive fantasy and have it killed in the moment you see my hairy man legs and fur covered vagina.  I’m not bitter at the fact that women are expected to be hairless barbie dolls…pfff.

The best part?  My skin as been like this /since I was born./  Some of, if not the first, baby photo of my has my hands in tiny mittens so I wouldn’t scratch myself.

But Katrina, surely you can just moisturize?

Thanks Captain Obvious, like I haven’t tried that shit before.

I’ve tried essentially everything that I can get my razor-clawed little hands on, or whatever has been shoved upon me.  There are just as many eczema sufferers as there are remedies, and apart from steroid cream /which makes your skin thinner as you use it and thereby makes the eczema worse/, there’s nothing for me that works.  Anything I find, and those finds alone are few and far between, will work for about a month, two at most, and then I will be back to itching like crazy as always.  Rarely, products will, after months of time apart, work again.  Thus far, regarding companies that have the largest number of products that do work, and will come back from non-use, LUSH is the fore-runner.  But even their products will quit on me.

By this point, I rarely use lotions, if at all.  I use mild soaps, but even those dry me out, especially since I swim five days a week and bathing in chlorine for an hour a day isn’t exactly awesome for your skin.  I turn a blind eye to most anything people suggest because I have a strong suspicion that it won’t work such that I am unwilling to try.  If it’s really thin and liquidy?  I am dubious.  If it has perfumes? Forget it.  If it exfoliates while it moisturizes?  I spend my life exfoliating my skin /with my nails/, I think I’m good, thanks.

This past week has been one of those transitional period of my body falling out of love with a product.  I’ve been using this oil massage bar from LUSH, Therapy, as I ran out of King of Skin, which is the best for my useless carcass.  I use their fig soap because it’s supposed to be really mild and easy on the skin, but like I said, even that dries me out.  The chlorine, again, doesn’t help because I scrub/lather more to try and work the chlorine smell out of my skin. 
Anyway, so this oil bar, I rub it on in the shower after I wash down, but progressively I’ve been almost itching /more/ than if I didn’t use it.  It’s been irritating my skin, I think, probably because I’ve had it for a while and I suspect the oils have gone rancid.  [Oils?  Go rancid?  Yes, they do that.]  I say this because I can feel this constant, prickly sensation on my skin, which I usually associate with skin irritation from chemical rather than purely dry skin.  With dry skin there is a surface tension, but with chemical bruhaha, its different.

So long story short, I am trying a new regiment today.  Shower, scrubbed down properly.  Put some solid serum on my face and neck, which has been fine on my face, after a swab down with toner.  On my body and neck I’ve used Ultrabalm, which has been only marginally better than the massage bar.  It still feels like its irritating my skin.  Which is marvelous.

So far, apart from King of Skin, the best thing LUSH has that works for me, is Putty For Your Hands.  Except I use it on my body.  If that shit didn’t melt away so fast, and cost so fucking much, I would use it everyday.  It’s amazing. 

Apart from eliminating things from my diet, which I haven’t tried yet, few things work.  Tomorrow after I shower I am going to try the Sympathy for the Skin sample I got a while back, and see if maybe scrubbing down with milk soaked oats in cheese cloth is better on my skin than the fig soap.   Or all three…or something.

I dunno.  I’m gonna paint now.

And watch Paul, Game of Thrones Season 1, Horrible Bosses or Hesher.
OR ALL OF THEM. D8

All the while I will claw away at my skin.
Always.


Reblogged from arcaneimages
arcaneimages: Rats Shiiiiiii

arcaneimages:

Rats

Shiiiiiii



MOAR LIVESTREAM HOLY SHIT

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Watch me dick around painting the same thing for the next HOURS AND HOURS AND HOURS


This is Me.  HERP A DERP

Bitch SHUT UP I’M LIVESTREAMING


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arcaneimages: ahh! love this!

arcaneimages:

ahh! love this!


Reblogged from lizbethanne

lizbethanne:

I love everything about this.

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Liiiivestreammin

I’ll be livestreaming for the next two hours.  Come join me.  I won’t be talkative and my audio is on my laptop, but you can still watch if you’rereally, really fucking bored.

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Reblogged from neil-gaiman
“ Dudes. Imagine life here in the US — or indeed, pretty much anywhere in the Western world — is a massive role playing game, like World of Warcraft except appallingly mundane, where most quests involve the acquisition of money, cell phones and donuts, although not always at the same time. Let’s call it The Real World. You have installed The Real World on your computer and are about to start playing, but first you go to the settings tab to bind your keys, fiddle with your defaults, and choose the difficulty setting for the game. Got it?
Okay: In the role playing game known as The Real World, “Straight White Male” is the lowest difficulty setting there is.
This means that the default behaviors for almost all the non-player characters in the game are easier on you than they would be otherwise. The default barriers for completions of quests are lower. Your leveling-up thresholds come more quickly. You automatically gain entry to some parts of the map that others have to work for. The game is easier to play, automatically, and when you need help, by default it’s easier to get.
Now, once you’ve selected the “Straight White Male” difficulty setting, you still have to create a character, and how many points you get to start — and how they are apportioned — will make a difference. Initially the computer will tell you how many points you get and how they are divided up. If you start with 25 points, and your dump stat is wealth, well, then you may be kind of screwed. If you start with 250 points and your dump stat is charisma, well, then you’re probably fine. Be aware the computer makes it difficult to start with more than 30 points; people on higher difficulty settings generally start with even fewer than that.
As the game progresses, your goal is to gain points, apportion them wisely, and level up. If you start with fewer points and fewer of them in critical stat categories, or choose poorly regarding the skills you decide to level up on, then the game will still be difficult for you. But because you’re playing on the “Straight White Male” setting, gaining points and leveling up will still by default be easier, all other things being equal, than for another player using a higher difficulty setting.
Likewise, it’s certainly possible someone playing at a higher difficulty setting is progressing more quickly than you are, because they had more points initially given to them by the computer and/or their highest stats are wealth, intelligence and constitution and/or simply because they play the game better than you do. It doesn’t change the fact you are still playing on the lowest difficulty setting.
You can lose playing on the lowest difficulty setting. The lowest difficulty setting is still the easiest setting to win on. The player who plays on the “Gay Minority Female” setting? Hardcore. John Scalzi tells it like it is. (Go and read the whole essay, then read the comments.)

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